Month: July 2014

not productive

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So I tried to set a goal for myself as far as designing stationery is concerned, but I keep hitting all kinds of walls. I can’t think straight, I can’t focus, and I certainly can’t seem to work, so I think I should just start fresh tomorrow.

I’m trying to come up with some original stuff. Maybe I need some inspiration? Everything I have made so far was basically an “original twist” to something I have seen before. I have a notebook where I write some things down that I might want to use in some future projects, but I’m just having a hard time putting them together. I’ve learned one thing about myself. I work best under pressure. I already knew this, though, because when it comes to my academics or my job, I am the most productive when it is crunch time, and the result is usually great. I hadn’t considered the fact that it carries over to everything else too :/

Everything I have designed so far was created for another person, on a set deadline. I completed them EASILY. Should I just stick to that? I don’t think I’ll build a portfolio very well (or very quickly) by doing that though…





blog about nothing: sleep

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Well, it’s 2:40am right now but it might be after 3 by the time I post this, but whatever. You get the idea. We’re in wee hours of the morning and I’m not asleep.

This happens almost every night of the week, and I really have no good explanation for it. In high school most of the time I’d be asleep by 12-ish but there were many nights that me and one of my very close friends, Albert, would stay on the phone all night — or until one (or both) of us fell asleep. We’d meet up in the hallway at school both acknowledging how tired the other looked (ie: “ugh girl you look terrible!” Or “your eyes look like crap today”) but for some reason we never learned lol.
In college, those nights didn’t happen as often, mostly because of really bad phone service in my college town when I lived in a dorm, and I had a roommate that I didn’t want to bother. I still stayed up pretty late though. All through college, especially when I became more involved on campus, I went to sleep late, and woke up early.

I left college and didn’t have much reason to stay up late anymore, and my sleep schedule has been that way ever since. Makes no sense, but that’s how it is. I usually sleep by 3 or 4am, then I wake up around 6 or 7 (to make sure my siblings make it to school) then if I don’t have work I go back to sleep until 8 or 9. Now that it is summer, I wake up around the same times, and it doesn’t help that I don’t work until or 11 or 12pm most days.

I can be a bit of a light sleeper, and other times I just have too much on my mind to sleep. Sometimes when I’m nervous or looking forward to something, I can’t sleep. If I’m not home in my own bed, sleep usually doesn’t go very well.

I’m not sleeping now…why? Tonight I washed, conditioned, and threaded my hair while watching some YouTube vlogs while silently complaining to myself that didn’t work on any designs today. I made a silent goal to complete two designs every day, but it just hasn’t been happening with work and all the power outages… I could stay up longer and do it but that probably isn’t very good for me. Plus I do really enjoy sleep [that I hardly get].

You know the children’s story about the sandman? That was always strange to me. Random, I know.

I just wrote a whole blog about sleep. Can’t you tell I need some? Perhaps I should try. But of course I can’t do that —after all, it’s 12 noon somewhere…


Shake my hand, let’s do some business

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Hey again! (Two blogs in the same day? Yeah I know…)

I’ve been away for a while but it’s for good reason. I have a little less than two months left of my summer break from school, and while I still have a (very mentally demanding, time-consuming) job, I’m enjoying the extra time and brainpower on my hands.

I’ve been spending my time using a few different software to design basic stationery items for everyday needs. This includes business cards, invitations, announcements, etc. I’ve designed for a few people so far, and it looks like I’m doing pretty well with it. I still have a lot to learn when it comes to the technical aspects of stationery design, but I’m very excited to learn. I’ve always enjoyed creating things, even if it looked bad or looked silly, I was just happy that I made it. It never crossed my mind to become a serious business venture until this year.

I am currently working on the website and other formalities for this business, and I hope to seriously launch it soon! Im still learning and asking a billion questions but I work very diligently and pay close attention to detail.

Stay tuned for the website/album launch! I’m assembling a pretty good team who I think could really make this fun.

Look out for updates!


More Random Updates – feeling very 23

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It has been quite a while since I’ve written anywhere here! I don’t really use my tumblr much either unless it’s the day after an award show and I want to look at all the cool pictures from the event or some gifs of my favorite artists. Anyway, I’m alive and well, sorry for the hugeeee delay in posts!

So a few things are going on. But in a nutshell, there is a lot i want to accomplish before school starts again this fall. Some of which, are already underway.

I’ve made it a priority to take better care of myself in every way. I’ve never been much of a fast food junkie or junk food hoarder, as I was brought up in a home where most things are made from scratch, so my eating habits haven’t changed dramatically. I’ve never really been into pork (although my friend had me try some she made at her house for dinner and it wasn’t bad), and I really only eat beef when I go to restaurants with friends and order a nice steak or a well done burger. And that certainly doesn’t happen often. Besides, I still enjoy tasty food!
I’ve been a person who walks a lot since middle school, I used to walk a mile to school and a mile back in high school. The mile-long walk home usually followed marching band practice or softball practice, so I had even more exercise. College slowed that down a little bit, but I didn’t have a car so I walked a lot anyway. I’m back home now, with a car, so I have to make the conscious effort to get my heart beating. That means taking the stairs, parking in far spaces in parking lots, occasional bike rides, and more recently, jumping on the trampoline. When I’m feeling really energetic I do legitimate workouts to keep the flab away lol.

Another way I’ve been trying to take better care of myself is to minimize stress. I’m a constant worrier. I criticize myself unnecessarily when it comes to my work, and I take constructive criticism very seriously. I naturally have the desire to please everyone and sometimes that means that I have to neglect my own feelings. I’ve made conscious efforts to express myself more. Some things I can’t just let slide anymore. A lot of dramatic stuff within my circle is now the least of my worries.

I’ve been teaching myself to understand my worth. Respect goes a long way. I give respect to everyone I meet, whether they return it or not. But I will no longer find myself in situations where my dignity is
Being compromised. I’ve been used for my time, money, resources and even my generosity and sometimes naïveté. I recently realized that the friends I value the most don’t expect anything from me but my presence and my friendship. I owe them nothing else. And that was a great feeling once I realized it.

In relationships, I still struggle with tolerance and opening up to people, but I’ve definitely become smarter. I’m grateful that I didn’t have to learn anything the hard way, but I’m glad that I’m at a point in my life where I still don’t need anyone yet, you know?

I feel like many people my age have similar goals and sentiments as I’ve mentioned here. The early 20s are really the years are figuring out life and where it’s going to go next. I’m having a pretty good time so far.

That’s it for now, thanks for reading! I’ll be writing about my new business venture shortly. 🙂